Rgh.

I'm getting bitter over all my close friends going off to uni and staying up until 4am and getting wasted and rrrgh.

...*sits and sulks and feels left behind*

...Aimee Mann is a Genius.

#It's not going to stop~...#

...How the heck am I gonna cope without her for 8 whole friggin' weeks?

#...So just give up~#

...v.v

Ugh.

TDF is being such an unholy bitch right now. I realise I brought a lot of this on by myself, because I'm being a crazy-in-the-head thing right now, but so many people are saying things really out of order. I could name names but I won't. I don't know who the hell's side I'm on. I just want out and I just want it all to goddamn stop.

TDF is all some of us have. It's the only place I know of where I have +3 friends. Really. And when things like this start up, my flight instinct takes over and I run and hide. I want it all to just stop, dammit. I hate all this underhanded, snarky bitching that's going on.

Especially between people I once loved and trusted. If there's one thing I can't stand, it's my trust being betrayed. I'm a loyal creature, and betraying me is like stabbing me in the heart and twisting the knife. It kills me. It ruins me.

I don't know if I even WANT to go back now. People like Bee and Rachel have been seeing this decay for a while, but it's just now become apparent to me. I don't know if I want to come back or not.

...People should know by now. If they mess with her, they have me to answer to. I will not stand by and look on if anyone hurts my mongoose.

OBLIVIATE.

So I installed Oblivion again. c: After some messing around and discovering the game will only run properly if I adjust a setting that makes the water purple, I had some right fun. Sally and I made an alchemist who likes destruction magic, named Roy, and bearing a hopefully near-identical resemblance to Roy Mustang of FMA. XD We're such nerds.

I made, as I traditionally do, a Khajiit thief. But I made a guy this time - named S'Zhidar. I really need to learn to not run away from anything that looks like it might kill me.

More to come on S'Zhidar's adventuring. 8D

Results on the horizon...

Y'know what? I'm making a post, Goddammit!

So I get my AS results tomorrow. I'm guessing I didn't do too peachy in Art. Thankfully, grades don't matter so much for arty subjects at uni - it's mainly portfolio and attitude. So that's good. And Matt told me he got a U in Graphics at AS level, so...yeah. I think I did pretty well in my Graphics this year though.

I will laugh so much if I pass Crit. It'll be like...achieving the impossible. I'm so chuffed I don't have to do that again.

And my essays are coming along nicely. Yay for getting work done early.

I've been reading...where's the URL gone? Ah yes, I've been reading 1000 Awesome Things and it's really pleasing to see these people tell their stories and making the most out of those tiny, awesome things in life that everyone relates to but didn't know they related to. So yeah, even though none of my main crew are online, and I usually get all mopey and lonely when they're not, I'm really in a pretty damn good mood. Like...hey, aren't the colours on my fruit sherbet sweets AWESOME!? All stripey. And I bet socks would look awesome being fruit sherbet coloured/patterned.

And combo Ritz/Babybel. Now THERE'S bliss.

And how when I have a really good drawing day and I can't stop churning out really awesome sketches. This reminds me - I really have to colour some of my newest pics. Oh, you know what else makes me happy? Hey Jude. Best song ever. Can't resist a little bit of head-bopping and arm-swaying when the 'naaaa na na nanananaaaa's kick in.

Hell yes.

Hooooo. Rambled a bit there. I'll make a mental-post-it to update this bad boy more often, yes?

Home

And my boobs are freezing. XD Yaaaay.

Ahhh...what else can I say? Gotta finish my EPQ before I go to London on Friday (yay) which, y'know. And I have another D&D sesh, I think, on Thursday. Really need to write all those up.

Enough about what I gotta do. I can keep that all in my head.

Taz! Taz is a kickass friend. He's like the big brother I never had, and I'm SO pleased to be meeting up with him this week. I just realised, I can talk to him about everything. I'd be okay with it. Girly stuff, blokey stuff, I reckon I could go to him. We have more in common than I expected, even more in common due to recent events.

Following on from that...no, wait, don't follow on from that. Let's not go there today. Maybe another day.

I need to upload my Filey photos tomorrow as well. Work work work work. So much for summer break, eh?

I need to dedicate a post to ranting soon. Something that might be suited better to a Shout Out post, but eh. Less people, I think, will read it here...hmmm.

Man. Can't keep a straight thought. XD Never could. That's me alright.

Ahoy, etc.

Buggering off to Filey soon, but making sure this works and all that jazz first.

Yeah, blog title win. It's one of my favourite words and there's something else behind me having called it that as well.

Right, I'm back on Sunday. Proper posts then, aye?